Tired out

Ns is just draining my energy away. Lazy to post, lazy to fix my stuff, lazy to finish what I have not completed.

-_-

Pop stands for passing out parade. How many time must ppl ask meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

And yes its over since u all ask me so late.

POP SOOONNNNNNNNNN

Yay pop on 10th june wednesday


Who want to come just leave message on cbox. Wee

Army time

Its time to enlist in the army so here is a list to remind me what I need to do when I get back.

Study, play AO.
Pay PY for CY's bag, pay LQ $10 too.
Check for episodes 3 & 4 of K-On & FMA.
Study some more


Ok so its time to enter the army and I won't be around for 2-3 weeks. No gaming, no going out with fwens <3, class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">cbox. Awesome.

Looking forward to army but not looking forward to studying during army period for A lvls. Its going to be fucking difficult and irritating to study at the same time. I hope army is going to be fun, by that I mean I don't get shitty ppl in same the company, platoon and/or bunk.

Well, at least I should get more muscles when I come out. That's something good at least. :)

OMGWTFBBQQBQBQBQBQ

Carrying the bike is more tiring than actually cycling says:
I BET U LIKE HER JUST BECAUSE SHE FLASH HER CHICK PANTIES
isaac - half dead. finally back home x_x says:
THEN SLEEP I THINK
Carrying the bike is more tiring than actually cycling says:
SLEEP THINK OF WHAT?
isaac - half dead. finally back home x_x says:
CHICK PANTIES



He dumped Jasmine tye just for this. Salute!

*chick panties are from the movie: Detroit Metal City which can suck balls.

In other news, watch DMC's anime. Its way superior.

Denial

Denial is a defense mechanism in which a person is faced with a fact that is too painful to accept and rejects it instead, insisting that it is not true despite what may be overwhelming evidence. The subject may deny the reality of the unpleasant fact altogether, admit the fact but deny its seriousness or admit both the fact and seriousness but deny responsibility.

The theory of denial was first researched seriously by Anna Freud. She classified denial as a mechanism of the immature mind, because it conflicts with the ability to learn from and cope with reality.

I'm not making another fucking long post so I would just take 1 paragraph from the website while the rest can be read on your own at the link below.

Types of Denial
Denial of fact: This form of denial is where someone avoids a fact by lying. This lying can take the form of an outright falsehood (commission), leaving out certain details in order to tailor a story (omission), or by falsely agreeing to something (assent, also referred to as "yesing" behavior). Someone who is in denial of fact is typically using lies in order to avoid facts that they think may be potentially painful to themselves or others.

http://encyclopedia.thefreedictionary.com/denial

So basically, thats all to it. I kind of delayed this post for a fucking long time because I bookedmarked the webpage and kind of forgotten about it until now. I don't exactly remember the details of why I wanted to blog about this but I hope the message gets out to whomever I intended it to be for and also to those who feel that this message applies to them or may help them.

For once I have a post that is not directed at myself but at others whom I feel should be reading this. Hopefully I can stop looking at the faults of myself and others and instead see the good in all.

First things first

A lvl results came back and I hadn't done so good. Okay, its actually really crappy grades.

General Paper : E
H1 Economics : B
H2 Maths : E
H2 Chemistry : D
H2 Physics: C

So basically to those who don't know how to interpret the grading system, this results mean I am qualified to be a road sweeper and have a < 30% chance of getting into a Uni or maybe much lesser.

By fooling around and not really putting effort into studying last year, I have basically screwed up my year of 2009. First of all I still need to go into the army, apply for uni courses which probably will not accept me so easily and I still have a high chance I need to retake my A levels during NS too.

At first I thought it wouldn't be so bad this year but then I realised I have already screwed up my army career, my EXTREMELY SHORT relaxation time when I'm in the army and a long term goal which has come so close to me recently but I still need to throw it away, if I still needed to retake my A levels.
Reason for screwing up army career: If I do need to study for A levels, I will have to ask my supervisor to put me to those slack vocations so that I would have time to study, this will make me ineligible for Officer Cadet School or other good vocations. THISFUCKINGSUCKS

I don't really know what to do about this goal of mine anymore. My goal would be impossible to pursue during my NS life + a probable A lvl retake. Maybe in the future I might look back and tell myself "it was good to have waited, for you have gotten something better by waiting" But then I wouldn't know if that might happen in the future and this makes me feel so fed up and quite at a loss regarding this goal. I probably would have taken a step forward in the near future if I actually did better for my A levels, but now I have to force myself to stop and it really sucks.